(a student acting as a student. best)

:3 so random hohoho

so awkward too ._.

HAHAHAHA but it was funny ^O^

pitter patter rain.

became

booomboompow rain.

XD

I'm lucky to have reached the safety of my room ;D

before the soft drizzle became a full blown thunderstorm,

with thunder and lightning thrown in.

I was still playing with the little droplets at the balcony,

feeling the rain on my hands and feet ^^

looking at those thin lines the rain draws in the sky,

and listening to the almost rhythmic pitter patter.

then I think I got too wet to continue playing =O= haha

the sound's still therapeutic xD

but the thunder scares me :s

just a little.

♥♥♥

perfect.

but I had fun hurhur

and randomly,

You don’t know how many times I typed stuff and then deleted them again.

I don’t know how many times either *shrugs * but that’s not important :D

This is not a typical-ant-post,

just words and no pictures.

just feelings and no actual recount of what happened xD

There are so many random or maybe not so random thoughts running in my mind but I don’t really know what are the ones I want to remember. After U-Kiss’ departure from the airport, I really just wanted to plop down on the floor and sleep for a week.

I didn’t, because the world doesn’t just revolves around me T^T I’m still feeling sleepy after that, because probably school deprives me of sleep as much as U-Kiss does, but I’m not complaining because I love them. (yes I love school too~ ^O^)

I was so tired, probably because my heart was so weary. A weary heart doesn’t make my heart love less though, I think it makes me feel about this love in a different light. I never knew I could fall deeper, but I think I just did. Uh oh =O=

I felt like a little kid all over again because of all the broken promises. It was the same feeling I get all the time when my dad breaks his promise when I was a kid. The feeling I get when I get my hopes up and anticipates going out with him over the weekend and then get all the hopes crushed, because he’s not coming again. I hate this feeling when I’m so hopeful, and put so much faith in him, despite everyone telling me that he won’t keep his promise.. I just wanted to believe him and wait for him. I tried to believe it this time but it just makes it harder when the promises are broken.

It was the same emotions I felt this time, being let down again and again. Maybe I shouldn’t use “let down” but I don’t know what else to use so I don’t care hahaha :D

Being crushed again and again, and then trying to ignore that piercing pain… to try and believe that the next promise will be fulfilled… then to have even the last promise broken hurts, a lot.

I know this sounds kiddish and all, I know it is but that’s how I felt so boohoo too bad I have to just get it out. It probably wasn’t any particular person’s fault that things turned out the way they did but it just was so frustrating, because we tried so hard. And it hurts so much because we didn’t even asked for those privileges, though I wasn’t really crushed because of those. I remember how we asked for the boys to use the VIP exit, I’m pretty sure it was the first few promises you made. Even that, was broken. It was the last promise I know we held onto, and when it broke, I was just so disappointed.

Don’t promise anything if you know you can’t fulfill it. It’s not just about what you say, or what you promised…

A promise is a promise, it’s meant to be taken seriously, no matter how young or insignificant we may seem to you. I’m sorry that we are not important to you, but you could have just not promised anything in the first place. Especially those privileges, which we did not demand or ask for.

I suppose some fans are furious, I think I was too. But we let it pass, because of the love we have, had and will always have.

But.

This doesn’t give you any right to step and trample all over our love.

This doesn’t give you any right to deny us of our love.

This doesn’t give you the right to break your promises.

Because we don’t say it in your face or get angry,

it doesn’t mean it’s right for you to do this.

oh because they are going to be alright.

oh it’s ok since they will buy the ticket since it’s U-Kiss, does it matter if it’s a signature or seven? Signatures only what.

I hope these weren’t your exact thoughts.

We’re not Rihanna(s).

don’t just stand there and watch us burn because it’s not alright.

don’t just stand there and hear us cry because it’s not alright.

It’s not alright because we don’t love the way you lie.

The way you lie.

I’m really lazy to type of the blasphemy done soo...

Quoting Liqing,

"They're really nice boys who have fans that don't appreciate what their organizers are trying to do for the boys. They keep saying they love the boys but everything is for their own interest." 



Oh really? How fair is this statement? Do you really think that if you said at the very beginning, there's only going to be 1 signature each, fans would DEMAND for there to be 7? What about "A chance at playing games with the boys onstage..." and later finding out how easily the "lucky draw" could've been biased, including fans witnessing marked albums not distributed but kept aside and also finding out that one random friend of the organiser was put on stage "last minute" just to "FILL AN EMPTY SPACE"? 



You sold your tickets worth SGD168 based on these:


- All 7 members signatures 


- A chance to play games with U-Kiss on stage & stand a chance to win personal items from them

- See the boys perform a special talent 


- Give them gifts via gift table
- Breaktime album 


- Priority queue to concert


- Concert ticket 



You failed to deliver yet you can say the fans don't appreciate what "the organizers are trying to do for the boys" and are being selfish and only thinking about themselves. Those are the terms that you, as the organizer, used to sell tickets to us. So were fans really being demanding when they were shocked to hear that all of a sudden, when it's so near to the event date, it became 1 signature instead of 7? What were YOU trying to do by telling the fans to: 

"if you guys can, please tweet/email the boys and the mgmt. with a larger number, all of us might be able to effect a bigger change. we hv done EVERYTHING WE CAN to beg for 7 signatures." 

Is it professional of you to drag fans in to join in begging the boys to get their management to change their minds? 

Are fans being demanding for wanting a good explanation on how the "lucky draw" was executed? Do you think fans print money? The money I paid was never the main concern for me, neither would I have wanted to refund because no matter how the event is, it is still U-Kiss. 



Don't you dare say that fans were being selfish and only thinking about themselves. You didn't even offer partial refunds yet fans looked past that and majority still went for the event just for U-Kiss, regardless of how expensive it actually is. Many who felt it wasn't worth it but didn't want to refund their tickets because they love U-Kiss and still want to support them. 

"I love the U-Kiss boys so much now but I hate all the annoying fangirls that make them look this bad." 

That's very nice of you.. =_= 

If you hadn't put the boys in a hotel where their room doorsteps are so open to the public and easily accessible and low to ground, yet allowing them to stay there with no security blocking off that area, do you really think screaming fans disturbing the boys would've been a problem? I could go on and on and on but I don't really think that's important. 

I'm just standing up for myself and the other Kiss Mes. I don't even want to write about ukissmesg because then we'd seem like selfish, whiny, annoying fans who only think about themselves eh? But it's okay, I just take it as a bad experience to become stronger and if similar situations were to happen in future (I hope not), we'd be able to handle it better. 

And FYI, boys and fans were x100 times happier in June. I just hope that you know how blessed you are because there are many people who want to make complaints and publicize this thing but why do we want to blow this matter up and upset not only ourselves but possibly the boys?

I'm over with being angry and disappointed, am still thankful for everything, but I cannot just let you say things that are untrue of Kiss Me like that, and what ever things you may or may not have told the boys about us. 

All that said, I didn't write this with an angry mind. I'll pray for you. Love your enemies indeed.

All that being said, thank you for bringing U-Kiss still. I wanted to thank some people, but it was just marred by everything. We were just too tired to bow and say thank you. We had to pick up the pieces of our hearts before we could do anything… and then we had to change course and go to the airport instead of home because… it was just too many things happening within a short span of time.

Thank God that we have survived these and this will only make us stronger :D Thank God for everyone who were with us, everyone who made this still worth it, everyone who made me laugh, everyone who made me smile despite of everything.

I had a good time, I really did. Singing with the girls, singing along and doing fanchants and just talking random stuff ^^V Thank God for blessing us.Thank God for the misunderstanding between the emcees and U-Kiss to be peacefully resolved. Thank God for always being there, even when we felt so tired, to pick us up and so let’s get going again XD

I’m just glad that this is over, until next time ^^V

I want to catch End of the Road at least once.

wootootoo~

I’m supposed to back-blog loads of stuff o.x oops~ hahahaa